Gratitude

the night when muslims are blessed with forgiveness

Nisfu syaaban is fall on the 15th day of syaaban (the month of Islamic calendar). Muslims are urged to recite surah yassin and pray for forgiveness on this special day. As a normal people, we've done a lot of wrong-doings either it is done intentionally or unintentionally. Thus, the opportunities given should be fully-utilised and iAllah we'll be blessed now and hereafter.

sometimes, i kept on thinking how people can change from being such an adorable child to a disgrace son/daughter. although i might not be the most virtuous daughter of my parents, but still i dont have the guts and courage to disobey any of their orders or advices. their unshown loves for me has been showering my life all this while. therefore, it makes me feel sad to see others who let their parents cried and worriedsick for their bad attitudes.

As ramadhan is approaching in just few weeks, let us be more rational and be yet wiser to ask for His forgiveness. Allah swt has always open His door for any prayer of appologies especially from the Muslims. Seeking Allah's forgiveness is all we have to do ....

From Anas, radiyallahu 'anhu, who said: I heard the Messenger of Allah, sallallahu 'alayhi wasallam, say:

"Allah the Almighty has said: 'O son of Adam, so long as you call upon Me, and hope in Me, I shall forgive you for what you have done, and I shall not mind. O son of Adam, were your sins to reach the clouds in the sky and were you then to ask forgiveness of Me, I shall forgive you. O son of Adam, were you to come to Me with an earthful of sins and were you then to face Me, without having associated anything with Me, I shall grant you an earthful of pardon.'"

[Recorded by Al-Tirmidhi, who said that it is a good and sound hadith]

I'm just hoping to become a better person each day comes...

15 Syaaban 1430H :: 5th August 2009

Lepaks with ex-studiomates

chegu aka faizah, one of the fab5 has been offered a job as an analyst in bangsar. She was previously doing her masters degree in urban design in UTM. to celebrate her comeback to klang valley, we planned to meet at bangsar and had a dinner together at Delicious, BangsarVillageMall. Lot of things to catch-up as its been quite a while since we gotta the chance to hang out with all the five of us were there. Actually, we started to be closed since we were the only girls from the same batch in our studio. The others are our senior as they did their foundation studies for two years. This friendship really made my days during my four years back in IIUM. Thank you guys for being such dearie and lovely friends. Cheers!!!

a D.R.E.A.M

I dreamt of a tooth loss last night. Thus, the 1st thing i did this morning after swithchin on my pc was googling for tafsir mimpi.And the meaning of my dream makes my heart like bursting into pieces... im so worry like hell right now... i know that we shouldn't believe it 100% right? but, what if it really happens to my family? im so scared and i have no idea how to prepare myself... i have never ever ready for any lost especially among my family members. Ya Allah, if this is really going to happen, help us to face the qada' and qadar with a strong faith in You. ammeen.

Irresponsible

i had a meeting/presentation to attend today in shah alam and after about 40mins of driving plus 15-20mins of wandering around the town centre itself (sesatlaa...) , i finally reached the venue; Bangunan Darul Ehsan. i chose to park in a legal parking area as the last time we had a meeting there, my boss got two summons for parking illegally at the roadside in front of the building. actually xberniat nk parking sesuka hati but we were already late for the meeting that afternoon. the parking cost me rm2 for an entry. i went straight into the building as it was already 8.54am and the meeting should be started by 9.00am. i was alone, so there's a lot of preparation to be settled for the presentation. as i entered the department @ 18th floor, there were only a caterer who was preparing the foods and a man in a blazer who was sitting in the waiting area. but,,, where the hell was everybody else??? the troublesome local authorities and the blurr staffs who supposed to handle the meeting.. at first, i thought mybe they are already in the bilik persidangan but...it is quite impossible for them to start the meeting earlier than the stated time. (sorry, im not trying to insult the government officers here but just accept the fact that this is the reality, they are just like that.mybe it has become a habits and norms for government servants in malaysia to be as lazybums as i am.so sad and pathetic!) a lady was there and she asked me where im from. then i asked her about the meeting and do you know what???



" the meeting has been canceled. how come you've not been informed?"



and there i was..standing with all the shit words crossing my mind and just waiting for the right time to blurt it out.. when i told them that we didn't received any memo about the cancelation, all she got to say is "sorry sgt2... baru cancel semalam and sy busy inform semua PBT.tp sy terlupa nk inform consultant. hmm, jom pegi minum dulu".. weehhh... igt i ni like the other typical gov staff ke kuar minum pukul 9++am. perasaan sgt gila mcm nk meroyan jek rasanya...huhuhh...



moral of the story: please, please, please be more responsible la people. you're wasting our time especially for us yg sgt bertungkus lumus mencari rezeki.

Everything happens for a reason

I've been doing lots of thinking for the last few weeks. A lot of whys???? were blocking my mind and it reached to the stage i was crying and begging;

"Please, please, please dear God,
please assist me to the most righteous path of my life,
i know i did many wrong things in the past,
i've worked hard to make me a better person,
but please, please, please dear God,
please make me understand for what is happening,
there is a REASON"

I am neither a strong nor a tough person. I need guidance and advice from others. Although some of them who are close to me might think that i look like the most persistent people living on earth, the truth is i am the most dependant people of all. All these days i was faking my true feelings as i have problems of trusting and confide in no one including my family members.

Today, the principle that i bear in mind is that there are others who suffers greater than me and therefore, I should always be thankful for what I have now as EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. God knows better and InsyaAllah for every trials that He gave me now will make me a better person in the future.

Kamsa hamnida

For the special dedication

I'll be strong and your La Tahzan book is with me. =)